because i care. simple as that.
i get asked these questions all too often. i care about others so much that i gladly take on their burden. even if it hurts me. i help people i dont care for as well as a few people i really do not like. but i do it. and its because i care. i care too much, sometimes, yeah. but i want to help. i dont want anyone to get even an inch within how i feel on a daily basis. it's torture. i know how hell feels. and i've been through so much hell that i can't just sit back and watch everyone else suffer or go through hard times. i dont care how much it damages me. as long as that person can breathe easy because i did something to make a difference.
when i feel shitty, i keep my head down. i usually have 1 or 2 people ask me how i am throughout a day. that's it. even hanging out with a group; keeping my head down; keeping to myself; sometimes even crying. but still, people keep their distance. eventually i will learn to take my own advice. i will begin looking up. i will try to face my past so i can begin to heal. i will realize the light that is there behind me, telling me everything will be ok. that i can push through another day. but the light seems to be blocked by my own stubbornness. but eventually i will be willing. eventually i will want to change myself for the better. eventually...
