all the love in the world couldn't save her now;
she has been alone for far too long and just
wants to be left that way,
to stay free and
do nothing but relax; love
is so often is wrong, it leaves her with nowhere to
go; so she stays put, no matter how much she wants to be
home with family;
she hates how everyone
wants her to be someone else just
to conform to society rules; they try to
remove everything that she is so they can accept
the person she is when she is wearing a
mask and hiding everything
that she feels
is wrong;
so often she wishes she could just
close her eyes and go
to a place far away where
being yourself and never pretending is always a
permanent way of life;
she wishes everyday that who she
is would be enough; she's
tired of wearing the mask
of a lost girl who is just trying to fit in by
hiding everything that she is; she's
tired of being looked down on because
of what she went through in her past and what she is still
running from to this day; she's
tired of pretending to be part
of something where
being yourself is not
something you are allowed to do; she tries to think
that somewhere there is someone who is like
she is and
is just wanting to be part of something bigger.
not an act.
