BeHiNd ThE mAsK

all the love in the world couldn't save her now;

she has been alone for far too long and just

wants to be left that way,

to stay free and

do nothing but relax; love

is so often is wrong, it leaves her with nowhere to

go; so she stays put, no matter how much she wants to be

home with family;

she hates how everyone 

wants her to be someone else just

to conform to society rules; they try to

remove everything that she is so they can accept

the person she is when she is wearing a

mask and hiding everything

that she feels 

is wrong;

so often she wishes she could just

close her eyes and go

to a place far away where

being yourself and never pretending is always a

permanent way of life;

she wishes everyday that who she

is would be enough; she's 

tired of wearing the mask 

of a lost girl who is just trying to fit in by

hiding everything that she is; she's

tired of being looked down on because

of what she went through in her past and what she is still

running from to this day; she's

tired of pretending to be part

of something where

being yourself is not

something you are allowed to do; she tries to think

that somewhere there is someone who is like

she is and 

is just wanting to be part of something bigger.

not an act.