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i just had a talk with my biological sister about out birth parents. we were adopted into separate families when we were younger. recently being taken out of my home because of abuse and harrassment, i do not have the privilage of talking to either of my adoptive parents about where i came from and who i am. so i sat down with my sister and her adoptive mom. in summary i was told that it would be best not to bother searching. at least not now. even though i am eighteen and ready. it is unknown of my father's location or existance (i was told that he could be dead). and my mother is not ready to meet my sister and me. this leaves me feeling lost, weak, and alone. it should not matter whether or not my parents are ready to see us. as long as we are ready it should not matter. every child deserves to at least meet their parents once. if it doesn't work out, then that's ok. at least they don't feel as though a piece of them is missing. at least they have closure and are able to move on with their lives and not have to worry about where their parents are and if they are still alive or not. it's not fair to the child. i deserve the closure. i want to meet them even if they aren't what i expect. even if they turn me down and don't want anything to do with me. i dont care. i want to know who they are. i want to meet my parents.