HiM

is that him? is that the ever loving lord showing the world his never-ending grace? is it him? is it? if so, send him a message for me. i have lost faith in him. he has abandoned me and left me to rot on this earth. i have no hope. i have no one. it is said that he is my father. if this is the case, then i am an orphan. i have nothing to say to him. nothing to ask. nothing to wish for. i am done believing. i am done relying on someone who gives me nothing but hell. yes, the great lord above has caused me to live in an equivalent to hell. nothing seems to get better, only worse. who is he to choose who deserves certain treatment. what the hell have i done to him? what the hell have i done to anyone for that matter? he has upset me and lost my trust. if he wants it back, if i matter at all, then he will have to do something pretty big to make up for all the lost time.