Anew

I've started anew.

Wiped my slate clean;

Unfamiliar surroundings all around.

Of my future, I will be queen.

I've started anew.

Nothing to hold me back,

No one to bring me down.

Yet my mind is so dark it's black.

I've started anew.

Why can't I just be happy?

I've done what I need for me.

But still I feel so crappy.

I've started anew,

But I still hate my mind.

All the doubts and 'what ifs'

That keep my heart in a bind.

I've started anew.

I've found my soulmate.

Or maybe I just think I have?

What happens when we depreciate?

I've started anew,

And I'm scared of all that could go wrong.

Perhaps I can work through this.

I just need to find the right song.